Ever since I’ve left Lucknow I haven’t updated my blog. I will not say that I failed to get time. There have been so many times when while sitting in the office I began to write something but every time it would just not come out. And if ever it did, then it would not be ‘me’. I would then leave it in abeyance. Maybe I’m having a dearth of ideas to write something on. Maybe I’m lacking expression power. Or maybe I’m getting all the thoughts in such a jumbled manner that I cannot segregate them in my mind. What is it that is bothering me, I cannot figure it out.
Today morning I again made an attempt in the hope of not leaving another write up incomplete. I was about to give it up when one of my colleagues suggested to continue with it. “Go ahead. Why are you not completing it?” she said. “Write anything. Blurt out whatever abstract you’ve in your mind. You’re not here to write for others. You write to ease yourself, to relax yourself. Let the world take it the way it wants. After all you don’t exercise a power on their thinking process, do you?” she continued. I pondered on her words for a while. They helped me calm down and made me feel nice from inside. My lips curved into a smile and I said “Ok, I will. Thank you so much”
Following this would be another post that I left writing halfway. I hope to see myself completing it now.
Quite the dilemma with me. There are many ideas floating in mind, but given the indolent I am, I have to force myself to write.
ReplyDeleteMy sentiments exactly.